The collective mood towards the end of 2016 has been somber. Just about everyone couldn’t wait for the year to end and wrote it off as a year that can burn in the fiery pits of hell where it belongs. In many ways, people aren’t wrong. Our world seems to grow increasingly uncertain and scary based on what you hear and see on the news. I always try to be hopeful in the new year. I may not be able to control what’s going on around me, but I can control how I live my life. The best approach? Live your life on your own terms and make sure you’re surrounded by people who will continue to help you along the way. If something or someone drags you down, then it’s time to subtract or remove yourself from what hinders you. We’re only a few days into 2017, but there’s a number of things I’m looking forward to.
Entering the month of October for most people means there’s a lot going on from anticipated video game releases to more fall shows returning or debuting for the first time on television. October for me and the blog will be an especially busy time and I want to outline what you can expect from me this month.
I am by nature a quiet and introspective kind of person. When I am alone, I’m often found going deep within to reflect on any number of things––myself, people, and situations I may encounter in my day to day life. If you were to get inside my head, it’s constantly swimming in thoughts and emotions I’m trying to process. This is why I tend to keep and write personal journals. It’s an outlet to pour whatever I feel or think in written form. The pages become a vessel to unburden myself from the noise and crowding in my head that may have gotten too difficult to carry for a long period of time. It’s also a form of writing that helps heal me and pushes me to honestly and critically assess myself as I am now and who I still want to be in the future. Among my inner reflections lately has included the ongoing struggle of writing and finishing my novel.
When flying back home to New York City after an extremely fun and whirlwind cruise around Europe, covering mainly the Scandinavian countries along the Baltic Sea, I came across this information board about Denmark’s most famous author Hans Christian Andersen at the Copenhagen airport. A quote from his own autobiography entitled The Fairy Tale of My Life was highlighted on this board which really resonated with me, “To travel is to live.”
Today’s post is one of the rarer ones I do where I talk about why you’re not seeing the regular geeky post from me. At least I don’t do these too often and instead of skipping a blogging day, I wanted to write something than nothing at all.
I had a more video game centric post in mind when it came time to writing my usual weekly update. Instead, something a little personal and introspective kept tugging at the deep corners of my brain to be written. I try not to write too much about myself and I try to focus on the geekier or fashion-minded side of things, but I suppose I can tie those usual themes I write about into this post too.
These days I wish I could go back to the time when I was just a student, doing the school thing and then in between I would have vacations to do whatever I like. I feel as if I had more time on my hands when I was a student than as a post-college adult working to earn a living and trying to figure out where my place is in the world. I’m sure others feel the same way.
Usually parents say we will miss the time we were students once we are out there in the “real world.” Being young and naive, we just brush off those statements and just look forward to the day when you no longer have to study for exams, write papers, and get good grades. It turns out that once you are no longer under the safety net of school, our parents were right.
As an adult you have a lot more responsibilities and things you need to think about seriously. I also find that my time isn’t what it used to be. It also doesn’t help that I got into gaming late in my life. I would have appreciated all the vacation times I used to have to just sit down and game for hours and hours.
Since starting this blog, it’s difficult to find time after a long day at work to write something new. I suppose if you blog/write for a living it won’t be as difficult. I could stop blogging all together, but I do it because I enjoy it. I may not get any money out of it, but it makes me happy. Writing makes me happy. If my blog somehow finds its way out there in the world and people enjoy reading what I have to say then I think it’s worth it.
I really wish I could clone myself sometimes. With more of me, I can get everything I want done in a day. One clone will go to work, another will blog, another will continue my never-ending quest for a new job in media, and I will stay home and play video games, read manga, and watch anime. I can dream, can’t I?
I only wish the days wouldn’t go so quickly. I find I have a hard time getting to do what I want once I finally find the time to do so. Such is life I guess.